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The new bike [18 Jan 2004|05:42pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Here's a picture of my new ride. Sorry for the bad quality. I'll see if I can get some better ones posted once the sun comes out.

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[03 Jan 2004|11:31pm]
[ mood | betrayed ]

Ever feel like you need someone to talk to and it's just when there's nobody around who you WANT to talk to? Yeah I'm feeling like that. I've been doing a lot of thinking about the past... call it regressing if you like. About the stupid mistakes I made and how blind I was for 2 years of my life. I don't like to use cliches, but listen up when they say love is blind. It can stab you in the fucking back too. Forget love. What does it ever do for us? Makes us wake up one day realizing we got screwed over. And for what? An altered state of conciousness? Maybe. A... higher awareness of life? FUCK no. The benefit of "love"? I didn't spend 2 years of nights sitting alone at the computer. Oh, wait.... or did I? Yeah, it's almost ironic. Those nights really messed with my head. They got me thinking I had it made... until... boom. Reality hits like a freight train. There's one difference though. Freight trains don't force you to realize how blind you were; how easy it could have been avoided. They shut the doors of remembrance for good. All it would have taken was a "bye", or a "G".. "2".. fucking "G". It could have been that simple. I had to cling onto something I didn't even know was real. Took a gamble and I lost. I lost big. Over a thousand dollars and a ripped out heart later here I am. Don't worry though. I'm a big boy. I'm... "movin' on..."

PS. To you: You better live two lives out of this one. You stole mine.
To the new catch: pssst... Are you sure its for real? Of course you are... So was I

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[07 Dec 2003|10:36pm]
It's December... Merry Christmas

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Random update post [30 Nov 2003|06:59pm]
[ mood | busy ]

It's been a loong time since I updated. I haven't been online very much lately. I THINK I'm finally getting over everything. I'm totally wanting to move on with my life. I've got finals coming up so I'm busy with that. I've been working a ton lately too which is good I guess... I was top in sales for the store last week. Yay me? Retail sucks! In other news, I went skiing Wednesday (sorry Christen.. I HAD to!) It was surprisingly wicked up there.

ICBC is wanting to settle my claim from the accident in July. My back feels good now so I'm thinking about giving them a call. I could definitely use the settlement money for my new bike. The 2004 Norco's are out within a month so I'm pretty stoked about that. My parents are in Mexico as of early yesterday morning. Who's jealous? ME! My white ass could use some sun.

My sister's been better the past week or so. I think she finally realized that she was pulling the family apart... at least I hope she realized it. Dinner's ready so i'm gonna go eat now. Leave me messages if you want.

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[10 Nov 2003|10:44pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

I dont think anybody reads this anymore but I'll post this anyways. Tomorrow's Remembrance Day and I just want to say thank you to everyone who fought to make this world a better place for us.

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Yet another song.. [02 Nov 2003|03:26pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

My Mom bought a new car last night. Its a 2000 Chev Impala. 200 HP 3.8L engine, its got a pretty decent stereo with a 10 disk changer. The best part of all is the HEATED SEATS. You can warm your ass up on the leather seats when its 10 below outside. In other news, I just finished Max Payne 2. If anyone has enough time to play a wicked computer game I definitely suggest picking it up. Anyways, at the end they play this song and i really like it so I also suggest trying to download it. Here goes:

in our headlights, staring, bleak, beer cans, deer's eyes
on the asphalt underneath, our crushed plans and my lies
lonely street signs, powerlines, they keep on flashing, flashing by

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye

your breath hot upon my cheek, and we crossed, that line
you made me strong when I was feeling weak, and we crossed, that one time
screaming stop signs, staring wild eyes, keep on flashing, flashing by

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye
and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye

the devil grins from ear to ear when he sees the hand he's dealt us
points at your flaming hair, and then we're playing hide and seek
I can't breathe easy here, less our trail's gone cold behind us
till' in the john mirror you stare at yourself grown old and weak

and we keep driving into the night
it's a late goodbye, such a late goodbye...

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I'm dead inside [29 Oct 2003|03:28pm]
[ mood | sad ]

To: You know who you are
Please just tell me what you want. I've tried everything I can think of. Funny thing is... I dreamed all this a long time ago. Déjà vu can be a knife in the back.

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fitting? [28 Oct 2003|10:42pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm 'onna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a puddle of misery

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

So here I am
I dont wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
Now I'm 'onna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of puddles

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way

Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else

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[27 Oct 2003|03:12pm]
[ mood | sore ]


You're outrageously abnormally silly!


How silly are you?
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Stuck in an emotional whirlpool [21 Oct 2003|10:27pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

In light of recent events, (ie. the worst days of my life) I dont think I'll be online for a few days. I've experienced the worst kind of hurt one can experience and I need to decide what to do about it. To Tami: I know you're sorry for what you've done. I know you'd take it all back, but it doesnt change the fact that it's already been done. The past can't be erased. I dont hate you. I dont wish bad things upon you. I wish you success for whatever you do in life, but as of now I dont know how I can forgive you. I gave you my heart and it was ripped out. The salt in the wound is that it didn't have to be like this. Things could have been different. Even pain would say this hurts. I'd stick a song in here but I cant find one that can describe how I feel. I always thought people liked writing about sad things... Question for the world: How did I deserve this? What did I do? Tell me please so I can warn the world never to do what I did. I now truely know that we're alone in this world. Nobody deserves this hurt. To everybody: reply if you care, text me if you want (778-772-2881), and dont ever stop; live life to the fullest. You never know when the world will get pulled out from under you and you'll be left feeling empty and alone in the void you're left with. Moral at the end of the story: Lying isn't worth it. Insert fairytale ending here please.

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my favourite sad song [15 Oct 2003|05:04pm]
Change all occurrences of he to she if you want.

i can fly
but I want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but I crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel

i can love
but I need his heart
i am strong even on my own
but from him I never want to part
he's been there since the very start
my angel gabriel
my angel gabriel

bless the day he came to be
angel's wings carried him to me
heavenly
i can fly
but I want his wings
i can shine even in the darkness
but I crave the light that he brings
revel in the songs that he sings
my angel gabriel
my angel gabriel
my angel gabriel

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HOLLLLLLAAAA!! [10 Oct 2003|09:57am]
[ mood | hyper ]

Ok dudes.. and Tami. Today was the best and worst wakeup i've had. There was a case of Jerry Springer yelling going on in my house. I swear the fight bell was about to ding. It turns out the yelling had a very good purpose though. Apparently my sister finally dumped her lame-ass boyfriend on his ass. Stupid prick stayed up all night with some guy and a whore chick drinking and snorting coke and sexing. Yes sexing. *shudder* Here's some multiple choice.
The guy is: A) a loser
B) see A
C) all of the above

Yeah I thought so.
In OTHER news... Halloween is in the home stretch. It's gonna be off the hook this year. I'm totally going as shrek. I've got the ears already... now all i need is my green swim cap and i'm ready to go. Think you can hook me up with that Tams? You've got to have some.. swimming apparel kicking around your place. In other good news, the Canucks totally OWNED last night. We completely extinguished the Flames. Ha like my theft of the newspaper headline? In all seriousness though... 4-1 baby! Good ol' Bert opened up the scoring with one of his usual pound-away-in-the-crease goals. Then came a textbook goal from Chubarov. Clark, mr. Caaaalgary Flame scored next. Ruutu scored at the end of the second to make it 3-1. The next goal was a welcome to the NHL pass to Jason King from one of the Sedins. I think it was Daniel. Ahh.... what a thing of beauty that game was. If it was up to me there'd be two seasons. Season One: Biking and Beaches; Season Two: Skiing and Hockey

Keep on keepin' on everybody. Later masturbators. ---> (insert endorphins here)

New Dream Bike (Tami said she likes it cus it's red)

My New Dream Bike

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Long time no update... [09 Oct 2003|11:04am]
[ mood | working ]

Hey to whoever checks this thing. It's been a while since i updated last... i kinda forgot. Oh well... all in all I'm hoping today will be a fairly decent day. I've got a test in crim in about... an hour. Wish me luck PLEEEEASE. Other than that, the Canucks season starts TONIGHT!! HELL yeah. Who's ready for 6 months of hockey?! *sigh* I love winter. Have a great day everyone. I'm out. PEEEAAYYYCE

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[01 Oct 2003|11:34pm]
romantic kiss



You Are a Romantic Kiss!


You are an idealist, and unsurprisingly, you give the ideal kiss

Your kiss causes almost anyone to fall in love with you

And to be honest, you need to be falling a little to let your lips loose

No biggie… your kiss is worth the wait :-)



What Type of Kiss Are You?

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[24 Sep 2003|11:09pm]
Season = Autumn
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)


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Its a bittersweet symphony [24 Sep 2003|10:34pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Fuck this shit man.. life is sucking lately. I dont know what's going on anymore. There's stuff i want to do and stuff everybody expects me to do but i just cant! My dad's been riding me lately telling me i've "got to start up my investments again... 'do you want to end up like us when you're older?'" I dont get it. Its not like we're poor. We're far from rich, but it could be worse. Then he's expecting me to register at BCIT, and he keeps saying i need a car and all this crap. What the fuck dad, can you afford that shit? I sure as hell can't. On top of it all, i've got to figure out some way of paying for an 800 dollar plane ticket one of these days. I dont know what to do. I only get paid 8 bucks an hour people. Multiply that by 14 hours a week if i'm lucky. You get the picture.. Why does life have to be so damn hard all the time. Just let me catch a break for once! I dispise those kids with the trust funds and the fancy "look what daddy bought me" cars, but ya know.. i envy them at the same time. The way i see it is that there's the top 5% of the population that doesnt worry about a thing when it comes to paying the bills at the end of the month. The rest of us work our lives away trying to make ends meet. We're slaves to our money, trying to save a little bit for the rainy day that never comes. When we finally get to the point where we start to see that light in the tunnel.. well guess what... we die. Us 95% scrape along while Mr. 5% gets his fat paycheck sitting at his big fucking desk. I'm sick of being part of the 95% crowd. I know that sounds arrogant or condescending even, but I dont want to work my life away just so i can die with a few more pennies that i never got to spend. Fuck it. I'm done.

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[23 Sep 2003|12:21am]
My inner child is six years old today

My inner child is six years old!


Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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I'm siiiick. Enough said.. i'm gonna go wish i had soup.

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[11 Sep 2003|01:14am]
finally we get rain

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[04 Sep 2003|11:41pm]
slowly undressing



You Are Slowly Undressing Someone


Your foreplay is slow, seductive, and totally transparent.

When you want some, you take action!

And you turn your lover completely on in the process.



You've been known to undress with your teeth -

And kiss all over. If it involves talent and time...

Well, let's just say you have plenty of both.



What Kind of Foreplay Are *You*?

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[01 Sep 2003|10:58am]
Intervew time... wish me luck!

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